RANT #4

 Its June already.

Times really flies so fast.

I got happy news today hence i am here to write!

My friend, A, safely delivered her first child today! She finally a mom! 

I am so happy for her. I cannot wait to meet both of them after this pandemic situation will be gone. I hope they are going to be well until then.

Actually, this is first time my best friend getting a child, so its kinda weird. This is my first time choosing a perfect gift for a newborn. This is my first time gladly called myself aunty. Oh, this really hits me hard. I am at that age where I will be called as aunty. 😰

And accidentally i compared myself to my friend a little bit. I am still single with work nine to five, five days a week, nothing special in my life. I suddenly feel that I am a little bit late on the train. You know, my friend already getting married and even got a child. Some of them looks really sucessful in their career, working at a big company while i am here, working only a small firm.

Oh! I should stop comparing myself to them! Everyone's time is different. I always told myself that. But you know, sometimes it just pop up in my mind. 

Oh I really should put away this negative thinking in my mind. 

I should love myself more. I should believe, when its time, I will find happiness too.

Or maybe I should just enjoying myself right now.

Because life only once. 

And I should appreciate and cherish it more. 

Love,

NK