I AM BACK!

 Hi.

Its already been so long i am here. the thing is my laptop broke. and i am broke to fix it. Until today, I really missed to be here. So, i borrowed my brother's pc just to recap what happened to me these past few months.

okay. to be honest, not a few.

it has been a looooong time since i was last here.

There's so much things happened to me and world. 

lately, the most hot issue was about Palestine. they were in war again with Zionist. like for so many times already. but this time, what makes me feels goosebumps, everyone joined in to support Palestine. Doesn't matter what nationality you are, doesn't matter what race you belongs to. And it feels that world is much closer than what you think. I think it is the effect of globalization huh?

Also, last 20th may is mak's death anniversary. still can't believe she left us last year on Ramadhan. it is on 27th Ramadhan. i got the gloomiest sahur ever last year and i can say that last year was the saddest year for myself. but, that's what makes me grow up right? I do really missed her. Always. I hope Allah put her in the highest Jannah and we will meet together in hereafter. Honestly, after mak passed away, i kind of not that afraid to see corpse anymore. This can be seen when this year, during Ramadhan, i helped a lot during mak lang's burial. i didn't afraid and hesitate to do so. I didn't get afraid of the idea of facing the death. Anyone will  facing the death anyway. so, ehy should i? I just need to prepare a lot because after all, doing a good deeds and left a bad deeds. like how jade said, 'live well or live hell, you choose.' it depends on ourselves. 

Another story about this year's Ramadhan. right before Ramadhan, i decided to joined exo-l event for the first time. it starts with my sister said that she found the promotion of exo-l event on twitter. where the event was to support chanyeol's movie, the box and at the same time, celebrating exo's anniversary, sehun and xiumin's birthday. so, i was like, why not joining in, since i want to watch that movie, the event just the add on to the plan. but know what happened the day we went to event? Soo got his first accident. yes, my baby car got his first accident. and the one who drive is my sister. surprisingly, i am so calm facing this situation. like i knew it will happened. Every time, i tried to do something bad (the things that makes me far from Allah), Allah saves me. but the stubborn me, still went to the event anyway. Just because i already paid for the event. Astaghfirullah. but know what, i didn't find any joy while i was in the event because my mind was full with soo. full with things that I have to settled after that. 

Oh. On a happy note. 

My best friend, A, will deliver her baby soon. expected on this June but cannot wait to baby D. I hope she will be safe and the baby is healthy. My gifts for them just arrived at my door when i am writing this. cannot wait to see her reaction! May Allah protect all person that i love. 

I think that's all for today. My brother is back. hehe.

Love,

NK