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Last Sunday on 22nd December 2019, officially I just added my second loan in my life! I bought a car! Hehe. Actually, I didn't plan at all to have a car for the time being as now,  I used my mom's car to work. But then, my sister got her internship a little bit far from home and that place does not have an access by public transport. Actually. they have but it will be a bit of hassle since she have to change two times if she want to do so. So, as an eldest, I thought it is already a time for me to buy my own car. Allah knows exactly when it is the best time and i think this is the time! I just knew how complicated the process to get a car! For god sake, before i think i just have to sign a paper, put the deposit money and i will back with a new car. BUT, IT IS TOTALLY WRONG. IT WAS NOT EASY AT ALL. First, you went for a test drive. Then, you decide which car, what colour, the salesgirl will make a loan calculation for you. You have to send the documents that have be...

Oh my gosh! It has been so long writing here.  This new company makes my life pretty busy until i forgot to update my entry. I know it is pretty late to say something about September but why not, it is my favorite month of the year. One of the reason, of course because it is my birthday's month. I think it is compulsory to write here about my favorite month. Hehe. One word for September 2019 is BONDING! Why i said this? Early of September,  I spend my time with my college friend at Perak since one of my best friend getting married,  we can call her A. I know that guy who takes my A. He met A during our college days, when we become chaperone for one of our friend S. The rest is history.  You know when you not met for a long time, you think will it be awkward to met again after so long but then that word "awkward" does not exist at all after we met. It feels just yesterday we met each other, going to 8 am class together. Oh i missed my college's da...

It has been two weeks I start my job in a new company. One word for this new company, CONVENIENT.   It was so near with my house and it only takes 10 minutes to get there by car. I can't be more happier than this. I already imagined if this is not ramadhan, prolly I will come back home during lunch hour. Saves my money. Hehe. After all, with ramadhan and start with something new, I can say it is a little bit hectic tho. During the day, learn and try to cope with new environment and night with the taraweeh stuff, I can say that I actually want to embrace more this ramadhan but I think I didn't?  I think its time for me to gear up with this last 10 ramadhan's night when I didn't know if maybe next year will not see this holy month again. Suddenly I got paranoid when look its already near the end and I think I didn't do that much for this Ramadhan. The feeling of guilty, please go away and start to do something!  Lets do better!  p/s: Tonight we ...

Wow! Two posts in a week! I should reward myself with something nice this weekend! Hehe. So, I come across a quote "Allah tidak akan gerakkan hati kita untuk berdoa jika Dia tidak ingin mengkabulkannya." from Anjell's ig story and this sparks something in my mind hence I am writing this post. I always takes this feeling for granted. There are time when this feeling come especially when it is dhuha time and I got many works to do so I postponed to do dhuha after finishing my works first. Usually, I will not do dhuha at all because after finishing the works, its already a lunch time and dhuha time is over. At that time, I will feel so disappointed with myself because I am delaying dhuha and makes work as a priority when dhuha actually just took like 3 minutes only. When I come across that quote, I was like, "Hey, Allah is asking me to pray and to ask Him. Why I didn't so? Since when I become so arrogant? Do I think I can achieve all these things if Allah sa...

Last week I got a scam call. They use our company's number hence I pick up the call, thought that maybe its true things since they said it was a call from court. But the fishy things here, they ask for my identity card number. I thought it is the process for me to know if there any sue towards the company hence I gave my identity card number. Suddenly, they said I have an unpaid credit card payment. I was so shocked. I never apply for any credit card before so how can I have one? They keep on blaming me that I might copy my identity card and give to the third party without put a crossing in it. They said I am not being careful enough and this might happened. Because I said that I never lost my card and the last I gave my card copy is last year for opening my savings account at the bank. The funny thing is I am so broke at that time and they ask me the balance in my bank. When I said I only left with RM4, he sound so surprised. LOL. To make story short, I knew it was a scam ...

Last night, my ex housemate back then in UK, was travelling back to London. I wish I was there with her too. Oh how I missed all things there. During I am staying there, I can say that actually I am not feel grateful enough. I think Malaysia was much better. I am near with my family. The UK weather that you cannot predict was so gloomy to me. I still remember when I was there, I wish there are a switch to switch off the coldness. I wish this aircond has to be turned off.  I cannot wait to going back to Malaysia and I decided to going back as soon as I finished my study. It does not mean I didn't enjoy while being there but then I didn't realized that I will miss that country so much after I am coming back. When I realized that maybe I can't come back there anymore, my heart is crying.  And actually every moment, with every person that I spent with cannot be replaced. Lets say, one day I will visit that country again (InsyaAllah), it will not be same anymore since a ...

Silly me. During new year, I promised myself that I will do this grateful series thingy at least once a week.But, as you can see, I think it has become once a month things. Time really passed by without I am knowing about it. In the beginning of a week, I always remind myself about my planning for the whole week. However, I just can't manage to do all those things. Only a few got crossed from the lists. And that's when I realized, what exactly am I doing for the whole week? Why I cannot finished all things in my lists? Is it that hard? Do I put too many things to accomplished in a week? I always felt that time passed by too fast yet I have many things to do in one time. But here is one thing. Actually, its not me have too many things but I tend to do something that makes me feel comfortable and doing nothing. Just lay on my bed during weekend, watching netflix and you guys know how many movies and tv series are there. I keep on losing focus. The thing that I ha...

The world does not revolve around you. It does not mean we don't care about you, we care. But we also have our own life to being taken care of. We are also human like you. Who need space. Who need to rest. Who need to be alone sometime. Who need to entertain people around me. Who need to eat and drink. and you expect me to entertain you like i only have you in my whole world. That so not fair. Of course, sometime you will say, Its okay if you didn't reply, just listen and read. I do so. But then, i knew you actually want a reply. So, i replied. But then, you seem expect me to do the same thing when i am busy. Again, its not fair. If you think only you feel disheartened with how people treat you, you should know, sometime i feel the same way when you did this to me. I try to be a nice friend to you by listening to you even when I am so tired and I didn't even have a heart to listen, because sometime the topic is always same but I try to. I...

Hi guys! As I am writing this, I just planned something for my mom's birthday next month.It just a simple celebration which I plan to cook her a meal and some present. Suddenly, this make me thought about being simple and yet we still feel content with what we have. Last few days, I saw at instagram, people that we called "instafamous" was holding their birthday party and is was so extravagant I can say, since they at least makes a party and invite their friends and relatives, with a big cake, balloons and party theme. If we look at the differences between their birthday party and my planning for my mom, I can say that my planning seems so shabby. I am not blaming them since they use their own money to spent. They can afford it so that's why they hold the party. Actually. In a little corner of my heart, I wish I can hold the big party for my mom too. I wish I can afford too. Who doesn't want to makes their mom happy right? Everyone loves to see someone...

This is first time I write about my grateful series here. Before this, I only wrote this in twitter, but because of one of my resolution this year to update my blog more frequently, hence why not update my grateful series here. It will be a really short one every week. I promise. Hehe. So, Things that I am grateful for this week:  I always believe that everyone need a great support system around them to be a successful. Doesn't matter if your support system is your family, friends or colleague, we need to have at least one person that can understand and support our dreams. For me, they just have to be there, for me to feel secure and believe that all my dreams can comes true and there are someone that I can show when I already succeed to achieve something. To go along with this journey, it is always feel great when you have accompany beside you. We encourage each other, we praise each other, we hold our hands when there are tough time ahead and console each other. And I ...